"My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him."(Psalm 62,1)

God is love! And it's all about him, therefore it's all about love(1 corinthians 13).
What does it mean for that God IS love? I think 've to learn that it's not about doing great things or explaining the bible, it's not about worshiping or listening to sermons in the first place. It's just about the father and me. I've the feeling that he whispers "stay with me, let me love you, stay a little longer, this moment is so sweet" again and again. And what do I do? I kinda step out of this moment and try to do things...I always wanna change things, and do things, I want to explain and learn things..I want to discuss and understand..that's not wrong. But God wants me to love. And he wants to love me.
I'm have not yet understand what it means .. I just understand little about it. I know that I have to love people more..that's why I read 1 corinthians 13 again and again..for months now..and still I can't understand what love means...how to love...how to get to a point where I can say that I truly love people because of their existence. Just because of their existence..not because they've done anything or said anything, not because they're loving me or anything...you know...just because they're here on earth. That's what God does. He loves me because I exist...not for anything I've done. And I can say that again and again...but still I don't have it in my heart. I don't know...
How can I understand it? I'm yearning for love. And I do wanna learn it...and I wanna stay with God...I want him to love me..
ahh...that's so crazy. I wish I'd just get it...
I wanna find rest in God...in God alone...