...Gods way for me?

God's unbelievable...
I can't understand Him right now.
I asked Him what He has to do for me...where He wants me to be, what my way will be. And I couldn't hear anything. But as I read the book of Stefan Driess I began to get an idea..and when I had finished reading I felt like I should ask Him again. And that was what I did..
and I felt something in my heart. I not sure yet...but I felt something shatter inside of my heart when I thought about orphans. I don't really know where this thought will lead me or if it truly was something that God wanted me to feel. It's hard for me to believe that I will work with orphans one day for I'm not really good in contact with childs...and in addition to that I'm half-orphan myself. So could this be true...dunno. But God knows.
I'm really excited.
And as I read the book I began to understand some other things too. I really want to have a family someday and I really wanna find my special someone. And I believe that God has planned someone for me. You can call me crazy..but that's what I believe. And as I read the book...especially the chapter about how he found his wife..I understood that maybe I have to be healed first. I think that God really loves me and that He loves the one who will be my special someone someday...and maybe He just wants us to have enough time to get rid of some bad stuff and share some special time with Him and to become healed more and more.
I don't know where I will be in a year or two..but God knows and I'll try to trust Him:)