thoughts..

Well what to say? I heard people telling great things about God. Some off them have experienced things I still cannot believe. Just like people getting healed from cancer or things like that. And I know that it's my fault taht I don't see such things too. I should seek the kingdom of God first...but I'm standing here and I don't really know where my place is. I'd like to worship the Lord..and I'd like to preach or even tell my own personal story to other people cause I feel like it could help some of them. I'm not proud of some things that I've done and I know that I'm still doing some very bad things BUT I wanna believe that with the help of my heavenly father I'll get rid of it. I don't know how or where...and I hope it won't take too much time..
Please, PLEASE Lord...Jesus, don't let me walk away from you. I know that I need You.
And miss You..
....give me a new, a clean and healed...a free heart...give me passion and show me where my place is. Show me where I can serve You and be a gift to other people...