..I'm not taking drugs...

I think I begin to understand what it means that the world will hate you. Maybe people don't hate me but they think I'm crazy or taking drugs or stuff like that. I can live with that fact but what really makes me feel bad is that my family can't understand what I believe.
They think to be a christian means to have certain values and follow law and stuff like that. But it's not about rules and law, it's about mercy! MERCY!
They think miracles are some nice stories but not true and real for us NOW...but they are. I saw it with my own eyes! I prayed and some good stuff happened!
God is everything I want and need. But for my family and most of the other people it's the world that counts. They think you need security to live a good life. For them it's just "nice" to be a christian. But for me it means having a heavenly life where miracles are normal. I want to see more of God, not more of laws and rules and earthly distractions.
Jesus is TRUE. He is risen and alive today. He still does miracles and that kinda things. He lives in me! The Holy Spirit flows outa me...
I'm not taking drugs and I'm not drunken or crazy.
They tell me I should start to think about my life and not lose myself in such thoughts....God is not doing wonders anymore, you cannot really believe this...but YES I do believe it. I SAW it.
They say that I can't just trust in God...I know that I have to work and stuff. But the main thing is FAITH!
It's good to be "nice" but I want more! I want to see a generation that stands up and BELIEVES in Jesus Christ more than in earthly things. I wanna see the kingdom of God coming on earth. He wants to use us. He wants to free the world, heal the sick, give us PURE love and life....
I wanna be unpredictable cuase Jesus was...I believe that the bible is the living word.
Oh God please help me to love them like You do...