What's about that? There's such a beautiful "thing" and I can't get it. I wish I could it's almost the deepest wish I have in my heart. If you've seen a really, really wonderful thing, something that makes you wanna smile everytime you see it..something that turns a pretty bad day into a wondeful one...something that shows you how great and awesome the Creator is just by glancing at it...know what I mean? If you've seen something like that you have to think about it almost every second and you can't wait for the day you'll see it again. It's something that's more wonderful than everthing - besides Jesus I think. It's something you can't find everywhere and if you search for it you might not find anything cause you just have to wait for time you'll find it and if you've found it you'll never wanna give it away anymore...it's a present, something you'll treat with such an empathy and care cause it's so wonderful and amazing. It's something I could look at for hours or even longer and won't get bored...I'd find new astonishing things every and every second if I just had the chance to look at it for such a long time... I'd do almost everything to get it but I don't have the chance...it's clear...I can't understand it..not in the least..but in my head I know there's no chance. I prayed to God for hours and hours just because I want to understand why I can't get it, I want to understand what's wrong about the thing or why it might be better not to have it but I didn't get it. It's like a riddle and I can't get the answer...I prayed to God and asked why this situation can't be changed into anything more bearable but up to now it's just as unbearable as before.
I'd treat it as well as possible, I'd try my best not to hurt it in any kinda way...if only this thing could see how much it means to me...