I just don't know what this things, this life is for..yes...I believe in Jesus. But it feels as if there is no answer...God's listening but I can't here anything. It doesn't seem that there is a way out and nobody cares..
nothings ok right now...hope comes and goes...sunday evening everything seems to be so right and now I'm running out of hope.
I used to be a person not showing any feeling, not known by anybody...and everytime I tried to change that I got hurt.
I thought I'd know somebody but I had to see that I don't know anything. I thought I might get what my heart is yearning for..but it seems that I won't get anything.
and I always just seem to think and talk about myself..
why...
that's so unreal..I can't understand anything at the moment..




Please forgive me
If I act a little strange
For I know not what I do
Feels like lightning running through my veins
Everytime I look at you
Everytime I look at you

Help me out here
All my words are falling short
And there's so much I want to say
Want to tell you just how good it feels
When you look at me that way
When you look at me that way
( ein teil aus Please forgive me von David Gray) Cold water Tremble inside Forever crying Oh my Yeah yeah Don't wanna feel tonight Ther's no rhyme or reason to love This sweet sweet love
(White Ladder)

What on earth is going on in my heart
Has it turned as cold as stone
Seems these days I don't feel anything
Less it cuts me right down to the bone
What on earth is going on in my heart

My oh my you know it just don't stop
It's in my mind I wanna tear it up
I've tried to fight, tried to turn it off
But it's not enough
It takes a lotta love
It takes a lotta love my friend
To keep your heart from freezing
To push on till the end
My oh my
(My oh my)