don't wanna wait anymore

What a day. I went from one meating to the other and hear SO many things. Good things...yeah. But I had no time to come down and think about the stuff for even the Taizé melodies from Kaddi just made me tired. I don't know..there's so much I can't understand and so many things to do. I'm trying to clean out my life and my heart..or I should say I'm trying to let God make that. But it takes so much time and I'm tired of not seeing where that will lead me. I'm tired of just sitting here and doing nothing at all. I'd be happy to understand some things right now and to come to the amazing point faster. You know...it's just that I'd like to leave it all behind and just take the good things with me and then I'd start something. Something great with the help of God. It's just that I feel kinda burned out right now...I don't even know why.
Ahh...how I hate such days...

maybe tomorrow's bringing something amazing or maybe the weekend will. TObi's comeing back home I thhink and that makes me happy..really. I've missed him.
But also Stefan will leave in a few weaks...
time's running...and still I don't see my way, I'm just sitting...just waiting..