Step by step

I'm person who's trying to come to the goal as fast as I can not looking at the step I might have missed out.
But I think God's just trying to lead me step by step now. Not very fast - but systematic and efficient. He's digging deep right now and I might stay at that forgiving and healing point for days or weaks. I know I'll never be perfectly healed here on earth for I'll get hurt every and every day again..maybe just a little bit but you know...but that's not what I wanna say. It's just that I think God wants to open the doors of my closets right now. He doesn't fear the fetor or rubbish inside and He knows that He'll find some wallpaper which I tried to put over some parts of the closets to cover what is beneath. I think people always do that. We take some wallpaper to cover thinks or some glue to fix things, we take our masks to hide our true face and sometimes - when we're really hurt - we built up a big wall to keep everything and everybody away from where we've been hurt. But LIGHT can come trough the tiniest chinks. I know that I can't clean my closets without some help and I know I'm not strong enough to break down the walls I built up on my own. But God IS strong and I want him to help me.
First I'll try not be that impatient anymore..I know that it'll take time and I definitely want to take every step now. I always just took some of them and I never got where God wants me to...so now I'll take the time it needs..with the help of God.
My father will lead me step by step now..I'm moving forward, can't you see?!;)