am I "still in need"?

I remember when I waked side by side with Jesus..
and it was a great feeling. And HE always held e when I cried. He had been there when nobody else was interested in me.
Now this memories are fading..I live a second hand life.
Am I to proud to ask Jesus to save me? What is holding me? Fear?..Pride..
anyways..
just some of my thoughts..