letting go again..

Im feeling so lost sometimes. Lost in a world way too big and in dreams way too far away.
I really tried to figure out more about my father but theres nothing here. No letters, no answers...nothing at all.
Its gone just the way hes gone too. And I hate that fact cause I believe Ive to let go of the plan. The plan to figure out what he thought and what really happened.

And I realized how little I already know who God is. Im still full of my old thoughts and behaviours and stuff. Well somehow I believe thats just ok and hes gonna help me step by step but sometimes its just frustrating to see how you are.