if you're not the one...

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I got a thousand questions in my heart right now.
Why do u enjoy my music? Why do u think Im "cool"?
Why are u staring at me the way u did? Why is God listening to y prayers?
Ive reli been so stupid to pray..please just let me wake up at 4am when u wanna say its right..its good.
And I woke up..
Why did u come eventhough u said u wont?
Why does it feel like home being close to u? Why does your voice sound perfect to me? Why are u just beautiful to me? Why can I see so many wonderful things in u?
I reli cant explain with words...
If youre not the one then why does all that stuff happen?
Dont know how long I can stand this situation. My heart longs to do something...
Cant think about anything but u when Im alone...
I never felt like that before. Its not that I think it could work... somehow I dont believe that things happen without any reason, maybe I just dont want to. But its like God told me...yes its good, its right...dont worry, just fix upon me. I will help u..
But how could u tell someone that seems to see nothing but "someone" in u that u think hes the one...?!
This is all some crazy stuff. I cant explain, cant tell...to me its just so real. Saw all the stuff and whatever I wanted as sign ..it seems like I got it. This cant just be accidentally, could it?
Is just waiting and doing nothing what u want me to do right now? Or should I just tell everything...
One thing I know for sure, I cant leave without having told him. This would feel false..

Why does it always feel like home when I see u???