...I'm excited..

Todays DOMINO was really good. I felt dejected today and I don't even know why. Well I got some really good "spiritual food" this week and that was awesome. But it's not good to hear things without making a change in life. And well today I didn't really share my free time with Jesus. I kinda talked to Him ...but I could have done so much more.
The Sermon in Service was amazing. It touched me cause I'm thinking about things like school of ministry and stuff....I feel like I have to leave this place. But God really gave me another view about things today....He can use me anywhere and maybe I'm to fixed upon leaving to realize what he wants to do right here. Well it confused me even more...so I don't know what to do after the holidays in september but as only Jesus can open up the doors for me I will see wether I should go or not.

I really losed this week...I could have asked my employer about vacation but I just felt like I couldn't ask another time...cause I don't wanna lose this job. And know I'm standing here, without vacation yet and I wanna go to the camp next weekend. Well great job, isn't it?!....
So this is another thing I have to give up to Jesus, cause I can't do anything anymore...
SO please, please Jesus help me...I so feel like I should go to the camp...but it seems that I will not be able to go...

Many thoughts are spinning around in my head...just as the Zeltstadt. I'd like to go there as staff member but the job I'd have liked to do is contracted to someone else...
Folks it's SO hard to give all that stuff to Jesus. I cannot plan anything...

I'm excited about life Jesus:)..and I KNOW you won't ever leave me. So please do the things You want to do them...