...trust?!

It's awesome to see that you're not alone. God just send me some people that are more than just lovely...they're GREAT!!
First of all Lizzy, who tried to be a comfort for me eventhough she had enough reason to just sit and cry.
But there are many people, friends...trying to show me ways and doors and stuff. I'm overwhelmed...they don't call me stupid or something, they just take me as I am. And I praise the Lord for sending me such friends!!!
It's still hard to trust and I don't see my way yet...but I know that HE won't ever let me down!

A friend just gave a picture to me...as a present to encourage me and stuff. And it's amazing! It shows like a burning heart ...the fathers heart, and the cross ..over some grey houses or stuff like that. I always thought it's a great picture...and I loved it...cause it spoke to me. And now this just gives me hope!! God's telling me "you're not...you're NEVER alone!!"...He loves me and He'll lead me to the right places. I think it'll be hard sometimes but I feel like I'm becoming free...not fully yet..but I can feel freedom..I can smell it!!
Jesus told me on saturday that He's waiting and He wants to take my hand...and that there's light after every darkness!! And I do wanna believe that!
I can't do anything but trust...
and God himself will take my heart and heal it. He will do...

My heart is open, no secret place...I walk towards You...
I will not fear the fire!!


"Wer sich nicht bewegt spürt die Fesseln nicht"

Ich hab das Gefühl ich trage solche Fesseln und lange Zeit hab ich sie nicht als solche empfunden, aber ich weiß...dass ich sie trage. ich hab mich ein bisschen bewegt und es tat unheimlich weh...und es wird sicher nicht leicht werden, aber Jesus wird mir helfen. da bin ich mir sicher. Er liebt mich so sehr, dass sagt Er mir jeden Tag...und vllt werd ich es irgendwann etwas mehr verstehn.
Ich will keine Fesseln mehr tragen !!!
Life not death...LIFE not death!!!!!!!!