lovely people

I had fun yesterday at work. I loved talikng to an old friend of mine...we just shared some life stories and I like that. Maybe we're gonna get deeper into it in the coming weeks...Id love that.
And I really enjoyed being at Caros house where they had a lil party. First of all I thought that I dont know anybody and it wont be much fun cause Im shy...but somehow I just managed it to overcome my shyness and talk to some people. And its been fun really...I got to know some guys whove just been amusing;)
I love just meeting the folks...I love sharing stories..and just feeling a little bit like home again.
Thats just what I feel day by day...Im not really at home. And this is not about where exactly you are but about if where you are is where God wants you to be. And yesterday I felt like God just wanted me to have some fun and meet with friends. And Im SO very thankful for having such wonderful friends. Theyre fascinating:)
This week my brothers gonna be at home and its his birthday... and Im excited somehow. Dont know how its gonna be. Somehow I love my family ..just because they are my family but somehow theres still so much pain. Not only inside of me..Im more and more realizing that theyre hurt too. Well I knew that all the time but Im realizing the pain when I look into their eyes more and more...
I just hope that its gonna be alright in the end. Family always means a lil challenge for me...
but God just told me that its fine and that Im allowed to be hurt and that I dont have to pretend. And Im almost always pretending infront of them...but I wont do that again. Im who I am...either they love me or they dont but I wont change for them. I will only ever change for God again.

And today were gonna go to Göppingen where Stefan Driess is gonna be. I dont know what exactly Hes gonna do but I know my Lord and Hes gonna do some amazing stuff through this awesome man.
These are the days that make thankful for being 18, having a car or at least a friend whos that.
Its easier like that;)
So I just hope were gonna find the place in Göppingen but as we have a navigation system today(thanks Lizzy:D...) I think were gonna make it;)

So I just pray that You are gonna touch us and everyone whos gonna come today Lord. You know what we need. I dont know whats the best for me today but You know and Im looking forward...and if You want to tell me some important stuff...please please...just let me know.
Change me.